i hate her...how cud she talk to me like that?it wasn't my fault..i had asked the compere,who was one of the organisers and she said the singer had to sing for one hr..id just passed this msg on to him(the singer)....i cud never have decided this on my own...and now she calls me and says i,being an artist myself(bullshit) should have known that ppl were enjoying the show and he should have contd singing for half an hr more..i myself wud have wanted him to continue,but then i thot the compere had already had discussions with the big boss's wife regarding winding up..how was i at fault?she expected a sorry frm me when she called me,i cud see that ..and no way was i going to say that to her..she spoke to me for half an hr..repeating endlessly that  i shud have asked her..and i hate myself for saying in the end  "ma'am it was a case of miscommunication but still ill say sorry if u think its my fault"...and not even once did that b---- utter "u r not at fault"why do ppl stop being human when they attain certain heights?..and why can't i be a bit more flexible,more worldly,more tactful..a bit more chaloo and less of a sentimental fool damnit....

can't make any head or tail of it? don't try...u won't understand anything..if i hadn't wriiten this,id have taken it out on my kids ...just lemme be..im feeling much better..