Don't have a cable connection at home because of kids' studies..had heard a lot abt Voice of India and other musical programmes..today happened to see Toshi's performance and I am mesmerised..what a singer and what a song...Cud anyone tell me the movie and the actual singer?

Din to guzar jata hai...

duniya ke karobaar mein..

Kyon jee ghabrata hai,

raat ke soone andhkaar mein??

Banawati si hasi,khokhli si baatein...

din bhar ki masrufiyat

anginat mukhaute..

Kuchh bhi to nahin hai ab..

sirf  hoon main....meri sachai...

meri dheron dehshatein..

mere dheron khwab...

meri yaadein...

meri bechainiyan

anginat sawal...

anginat jawab..

sab sach...

        Anu

Kaash hummein aata yeh lamha sahejna,

Is lamhe mein jee lena aur kuchh bhi na sochna,

Kal kaise jeeyenge,reh payenge tum bin kis tarah....

Kaash hummein aata in dehshaton ko bhoolna..

 Kyon nahin jee pate aaj mein hum???????

                                               Anu                              

i hate her...how cud she talk to me like that?it wasn't my fault..i had asked the compere,who was one of the organisers and she said the singer had to sing for one hr..id just passed this msg on to him(the singer)....i cud never have decided this on my own...and now she calls me and says i,being an artist myself(bullshit) should have known that ppl were enjoying the show and he should have contd singing for half an hr more..i myself wud have wanted him to continue,but then i thot the compere had already had discussions with the big boss's wife regarding winding up..how was i at fault?she expected a sorry frm me when she called me,i cud see that ..and no way was i going to say that to her..she spoke to me for half an hr..repeating endlessly that  i shud have asked her..and i hate myself for saying in the end  "ma'am it was a case of miscommunication but still ill say sorry if u think its my fault"...and not even once did that b---- utter "u r not at fault"why do ppl stop being human when they attain certain heights?..and why can't i be a bit more flexible,more worldly,more tactful..a bit more chaloo and less of a sentimental fool damnit....

can't make any head or tail of it? don't try...u won't understand anything..if i hadn't wriiten this,id have taken it out on my kids ...just lemme be..im feeling much better..

Meri khamoshi ko meri bechargi na samajh...

sirf teri hi khatir yeh honth chup hain..

Tune shayad jo ki...wo thi na wafa...

lekin maine to teri ibaadat hi ki hai.

Tu lakh uda meri ulfat ka mazaak..

chup chaap tamasha bhi yeh dekhenge.

 Teri nazron mein shayad wo thi ik khata...

lekin maine to dil se mohobbat hi ki hai...

                Anu

Come not when I am dead..

to drop thy tears upon my grave,

to trample round my fallen head.

Come not when I am no more..

to put thy hand upon my cold forehead,

and whisper that you really cared.

Come not when everything is gone..

the love,the conflicts,the hatred and me..

to wonder was I true to thee.

Come NOW my love,I need you so,

make my last breaths easy.

Hold me just a moment in your arms,

and let me go happy..

Yes!!!! I was loved...

                            Anu

Should add two things here as an afterthought...

1).The first stanza( I guess the best one:)...is not mine.Rest of the poem is written by me....It was a contest in a newspaper wherein u r given the first stanza and u have to complete the poem...so I can't take credit for something I didn't create..

2) The sketch is by me pppplllllll...say something:..good, bad, ugly, funny whtever :)))

http://www.mediafire.com/?t1qglsxwfmq

Rains look to have finally arrived here..and how I love them!!!!..the tip tip,the pyasi mitti ki khushbu ,the swaying trees..the muffled thundrous sounds.....Its pure  magic.....Till yesterday , days and nights were unbearable because of the extensive heat..and today I already feel like wrapping a shawl around my shoulders...wow..It has started again..have to go to the market to get my stitched dresses,and wht better time than this??..wud be heavenly driving in the rain,..overcast sky,less crowded roads,soft music playing in the car...  the water falling on my face and arm..no way am I going to close the window..pagal hoon kya??:) ..Some part of us never grows up,does it?:)))....Bye  

My pulse is fading,my heart is sinking..,

I can't think straight,my thoughts all mingling!!

The day has lost  its warmth.the night all its charm..

I'm going about my chores, as if lost in a trance!!!

The flowers in my garden,no longer look that lovely...

the puppies in my backyard,no longer that cuddly!!

Oh please shut that music,its jarring to my ears..

Oh god  please help me,just take away these fears!!

I'll be brave,ill surely be wise,

will keep my mouth sealed,no matter what the price!!

 Shy ,demure, dutiful..is what im gonna be,

isn't this what she wants,my hubby's mummy ji??

No baddy, loud music,no t shirts,skirts or jeans,

no prancing around the house like a girl in her teens!!

Am refreshing my culinary skills,be it dosa,idli,

isn't this what she wants,my hubby's mummy ji??

What is it about mothers-in-law that even after so many years of my marriage,mine can  make a rowdy like me nervous:))))))))))))))))))))

                                          Anu

Kuchh harf..

Kuchh harf in khaali pannon pe utaar to dein..

Per kya tum samajh paoge?

Kaali syahi se likhi tehreer to dekh logey ...

Ismein chhupi  rooh ko pehchan paoge??

Jaan paoge ki jagah jagah se mit ti si lakeerein

kitne hi ashkon ko sokhe dhundhla si  gayi hain..??

Kuchh bhi samajh paoge tum?

Zara sa...Kuchh bhi???

Pagal nahin to aur kya hain hum???

Ru-baru kabhi samjha na sake tumhein jo kehna chahte hain..

To in bejaan harfon se kyon umeed lagaye baithe hain????...

                                Anu..

harf..letters,alphabets

pannon..pages

syahi..ink

tehreer...writing

rooh...soul

ashkon..tears

ru-baru...aamne samne